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Sanity
Saturday, October 29, 2005

i've break down once again. i juz cant keep on like tiz any longer.
for the whole week..i had not been going home early..earliest was 10plus. its not tt i like going out or wad..it is becoz i noe when i reach home early, when i faced the four walls at home..i will think of u. i tred my best to occupied myself with lots of things to do..its does work while im busy..onli to realise i'll miss u even more when i get home. i've tired to make myself tired..so tt when i go home..i can juz sleep and wait for a brand new day. but how i noe i can miss u still in my dreams. today played bball. i played well. but so wad? i got no one to share it with. i tot that if i leave u alone. you will be better. i tot i could take all those pain for u. and that u can carry on with life happily. but it doesn't seems to work. why. i realli wan u to be happy. to have a smile with u always. juz how can it happen. tell me. i'm willing to do anyting for u. and i mean it. but why i juz cant seems to help. i wanna listen to ur problems. to help u with them.but i'm afraid i'll end up making u worst. i wanted to tok to u. but i scared u wldnt wan to. why issit tt i afraid of so many things. i've realli changed alot. since that veri day. i dun find gaming fun anymore. i dun enjoy watching tv show tt much anymore. my appitite drop. i dun chat so much animore. be it sms or online. i'm not tt frenly animore. my phone is not with me all the time anymore. it used to be 24/7 with me. but now. its juz lying on my bed for most of the time. for i dun nid it tt much as b4. i dun yearn for it to vibrate or ring anymore. coz i noe it wun be u. i wanted to asked u out. but u juz seems to be so bz. bz with ur frens. ur sch work. and i'm afraid u wun wanna go out wif me. anymore. and i seems to have nothing much to look forward in life anymore. all those plan for our future. seems more like a dream now. everyday seems to be the same. i wake up thinking of u. and i will find ways and do things to not think bout u for the day. im realli tired of it. i cant take it anymore. tiz had to have an end. i rather let u hurt deeply once more. den to be tortured everday. i've gonna try no matter wad. i cant be bothered anymore

roar-ed;
8:30 AM;

~Xy
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